Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Cycle 11 CD25 (1dpo?) - How would you like your eggs?


At this point I'm just guessing, but I'm pretty sure I am 1dpo. I got a +OPK at about 3am CD22 (so the night of CD21) and continued to get them for 36 hours. It might have been 48 hours but I didn't test again until 60 hours, at which point it was slightly under. I normally only get surges lasting 14 or 18 hours (sometimes less than 12) so this was really long for me.

I don't have enough pre-o temps to confirm ovulation, but my temp did rise quite a bit this morning in relation to my last three temps. Since I took it 2 hours early it probably would have been even higher. So we will see what the next few days bring. It would be pretty sucky if I had a surge, and my temp rose, and I still didn't ovulate but I'm sure it's possible.

Unfortunately since we are both still sick my poor egg was stood up. I was so worried about this cycle a month ago and now I'm out just because we were too sick to do it. Oh well, at least I (probably) ovulated! Later then we would like obviously but it's a good start for 2.5mg Femara. I might have ovulated at my normal time if it wasn't for being so sick. Poor DH had to go to the doctor again and get more antibiotics and some prescription cough medicine. Hopefully we will both be over this soon!

On thing I failed to mention last time is how wonderful Femara is vs Clomid. I haven't had any side effects basically. Of course I didn't have many side effects on 50mg Clomid, either. Still it's nice to not be constantly nauseous or have hot flashes or be excessively moody. Since I found this coupon site and cost is no longer a factor I would definitely suggest Femara over Clomid.

Other than having bad timing this cycle, we have also reached another TTC milestone. As of a few days ago we have been TTC 15 months. I know 15 months doesn't sound like a milestone so let me explain. If you are a fertile myrtle and have good timing you have a 20% chance of conceiving each cycle. Odds are you will be pregnant within six months. 6 + 9 = 15. Basically we should have at least a newborn by now if it weren't for my issues, since other than this cycle our timing has been good. Instead with the recent change in protocol I feel like we're just starting over.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Liebster Blog Award, Part 2

A few of you may remember that I was nominated for the Liebster Blog Award back in November by The Greek Housewife. Well I got sick (think I had the flu?) and never finished posting about that. I also apparently never finished my 30 Days of Thanks. Oops. Well now I have been nominated again by not one, but two lovely ladies: Danser Cheri from 2 Love Birds Building a Nest and Victoria from You Make Me Feel Like Dancing! Since I've already done the 11 Things About Me part, I'm just going to link you to that post. Everything is mostly the same as it was then, only I have a few more zebra items and I'm less confident my rainbow baby will be here quickly (I will have one though!).

Now on to the questions!

Vickie's Questions

1. What frustrates you about blogging? 
My ideas seem to come in waves. So I will have 50 things I want to blog about one week, and then nothing the next. I usually end up just not posting most of the stuff when I'm in the flood stage because I'm afraid I'm going to seem too inconsistent. I really need the schedule of posting every Wednesday or some weeks I might post everyday but then go a month without anything.

2. What do you love about blogging?
I love having an outlet, a space that is mine, to say whatever I want.

3. If you had 3 hours to yourself (no husband, no kids, no chores) what would you do? 
The same thing we do every night, Pinky - try to take over the world! Really though, as a SAHW I have a lot of free time as is. So I'd probably play around online, watch some Netflix, read, etc.

4. Apart from blogging, how do you spend your free time? 
Playing around online, watching Netflix, reading, etc. =P

5. What is your favorite music? Artist? 
I like what my husband calls Emo White Boy Music. My favorite artist is Anberlin.

6. Describe your ideal romantic dinner! 
I don't know. Romantic dinners aren't really my thing.

7. What is your favorite form of exercise? 
Pretty much the only exercise I do is yoga and pilates so I guess that. I liked dancing like stuff like zumba back when I could do it and not go into a pain crisis.

8. What is your favorite snack? 
Pickles! Also Honey Nut Cheerios.

9. Do you have pets? 
Yes, a 2 year old Yorkie whom I love super muches.

10. What is your all-time favorite movie? 
Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog

11. What could you really live without? (object)
A food processor. We have one but we rarely use it. There are only a few things I'd miss having it for.

Danser Cheri's Questions

1. What is your favorite color and why?
My favorite color goes back and forth between green and purple. I don't know why, I guess because they are pretty?

2. So, you have a blog. Why? 
I wanted to start documenting our TTC journey so hopefully I could look back on it one day and think about how far we've come.

3. What is your goal for this year? 
Read 30 books. I read 27 books last year so an extra three shouldn't be too hard.

4. What is the best song to describe your mood today? 
Down With The Sickness

5. Who are the 3 most important people in your life and why? 
Oooh this is so hard! DH would be the first one, then probably my mom, but I'm conflicted on the third one. I have two sisters so I really don't want to say one over the other.

6. How did you meet your significant other? (if single, what do you look for in a significant other?) 
I met him on WoW. You can read more about that in my 11 Things About Me post.

7. If there was a $100 bill laying on the ground, would you take it? If so, what would you buy with it? If not, why? 
Heck yeah I would take it! Only reason I wouldn't would be if I could easily tell who it belonged to, and then I would give it back. Otherwise I would take it and put it in the bank with the rest of our money.

8. Compare yourself to your 15 year old self. What would you tell him/her? 
Honestly I can't remember what was going on when I was 15.

9. What is your worst vice? 
Carbs. They are oh so good, and yet so bad.

10. Take your age and double it. Where do you see yourself at that age? 
I would be 48. By then I see myself with a couple of kids one way or another, living somewhere other than Florida, but other than that it's hard to say.

11. What is the best life advice you can give your followers?
If the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off.

Victoria's Questions

1. What was your favorite TV show growing up? 
I Love Lucy

2. What is it that you "get" out of blogging? 
A sense of release.

3. What is your favorite book? Why? 
Probably Anthem by Ayn Rand. I'm a fan of dystopias in general. It's so short you can easily read it in one afternoon so I don't even know how many times I've read it.

4. What made you decide to repost this and nominate others? 
I figure three nominations is a pretty good sign I should actually get around to doing it haha!

5. What is your favorite memory? 
Seeing my DH in person for the first time.

6. What do you do when nobody's watching? 
Dance around in my computer chair.

7. If you won the lottery, what would you do with the money, and why?
I would of course bring out the big fertility guns, injectibles at the very least and IVF if that didn't work. I would buy a new-to-me car. I would get a much nicer apartment/rented house, but not buy a house as we are looking at moving away from the area in 2014. I would update my wardrobe slightly and get some really nice, supportive bras. The ultimate goal though would be to invest the bulk of it so it could supplement our finances long-term.

8. If you could donate to any charity (any specific charity, or a general cause), what would it be?
Something to do with PCOS or Endo I would imagine, or the Methuselah Foundation.

9. If you could do any job in the world, what would it be? 
I just want to be a mom.

10. What do you love most about yourself? List five reasons why. 
I am my own person. I like the things I like, and don't like what I don't. I'm a nerd, but I like Doctor Who because it is entertaining not because I feel I should. I also like Fall Out Boy and Panic! At The Disco even though I know I shouldn't. I don't care if my decisions are popular or not. For the most part I don't even care if people like me or not.

11. Chocolate or vanilla?

My Questions

1. What is your favorite blog entry (posted by yourself of course) and why?
2. What is your favorite quote?
3. What is your goal for this year?
4. If you could live anywhere, where would it be?
5. Do you know a second (or third, etc) language? If so, what?
6. If you had to pick between bringing 100 books or 100 movies to a deserted island, which would you choose?
7. Apple or Android?
8. What's for dinner?
9. Coffee or tea?
10. If you were to adopt, would it be open or closed?
11. What's the best advice you can give to your followers?

(Yes I know, I stole some of the questions. So sue me.)


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Donating Hope
Bits and Pieces
Sarah's Corner
My Life with Porh and Other Craziness
Dancing My Way Through Life, Loss, and Books
Every Little Beautiful Pieces
Waiting for my Bun
Our Journey from "Us Two" to a Family
Against All Odds We Did It
My Violet Thoughts

Thursday, January 24, 2013


Every once in a while I see a card on Postsecret that really resonates with me. Something I could have sent in if I had the guts. Sometimes I think a middle finger symbol would be more appropriate than the dreaded words "not pregnant".

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Cycle 11 CD18 - We're home!

We got home from our vacation late last night. We were supposed to be home Sunday afternoon but unfortunately we all got crazy sick the last day of the cruise. We were stuck in Mississippi for a few days and DH and my mom had to go to the hospital. ER doctor said upper respiratory infection but the antibiotics aren't really helping so who knows.

I didn't have much luck with TTC on the cruise. I took 20 OPKs with me, which should have been enough for 2 x 10 days. We were actually gone 12 days and I came back with like 7 of them, so yeah I didn't use them like I should have. Some days I used two some days I didn't use any. Didn't temp basically at all. I got an almost positive OPK CD12 I think, give or take a day. CD14 my CM turned creamy, I felt bloated, and my boobs hurt, so I thought there might be a tiny chance I ovulated "on time". Now I think it's just because I was getting sick. Even if I was temping I couldn't use that to confirm or deny because I've had a fever. So I guess we will see how I feel when I get over this illness. I've had EWCM on and off since then but that could be because I haven't O'd or because of the decongestants and stuff.

I think that if I haven't ovulated yet the chances of doing so this cycle are pretty slim. Illness can cause anovulatory cycles even for women with perfectly healthy reproductive systems. Even if I do manage to O in the next few days we would miss it anyway. I'm going to start my OPKs up again today just in case, and will resume temping when I'm fairly sure my fever has broken (and I've managed to unpack and find my thermometer). If after I get better I think there is a chance I actually did O then I'll test around Feb 4th and then probably call for provera. But we'll see how things go.

We did have a fantastic time on our trip until the last day. I will try and post a recap when I'm feeling up to it. I know ICLW is this week so here's a Hello! to anyone stopping by for that. I know I signed up but it doesn't look like I'll be participating. Maybe next month I will do the commenting but won't add my blog to the list to make up for it.

Also I see I've somehow made it over 50 followers! That is just craziness to me. I will try to check out the new people and say a proper hello when I'm feeling a bit better.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Vacation post

We are currently having a fantastic time sailing around the Caribbean. Or at least I imagine we are. It would suck if we weren't, right? I'm not going to pay the exorbitant price for internet on the boat so you'll just have to wait till next week to find out! So since I can't update you on my cycle or how TTC on vacation is going, here are some random thoughts I've had over the past few weeks that never made it in to previous posts.

I'm a gamer. One of the games I love is Sims 3. I'll be honest, I kind of project my infertile frustration on my Sims by giving them giant families. One of the dudes I've been playing has 15+ kids with like 7 different women. =D Anyway, one of his baby mamas recently had twins and I couldn't think of a good name for them. I haven't had to name most of his kids because the mom didn't live with him so it was automated, but I had to move this girl in because her family already had 8 people. So I went to the play store and searched for a baby name app.

Plus he has some on the way.

What I found was Baby Name-o-Matic. This thing is seriously awesome. It gives you a random list of names picked out of the 5000+ in it's database, and you rate them 1-5 stars. After you rate a few it considers the ones you've given high ratings and then generates names that have something in common with them. I apparently tend to like English/Irish/Scottish names so that's what it mostly gives me. When you click on a name to rate it the app also shows the origin and meaning which is nice. I showed it to DH and he decided our girl name was going to be Aubrey. Not necessarily because he loves the name Aubrey, but because it means "ruler of elves" in French. =D Too bad for him I've had two girl names picked out for years.

Another discovery I've made recently is a baby picture generator. Someone posted about it on one of the forums I visit or on their blog, I can't really remember. The one I used was Morph Thing and it was fairly easy, although more complicated than just uploading a picture. You have to upload your picture and then tell the program where the different parts of the face are, like eyes, nose, chin, etc so it can line those up correctly. Unfortunately DH and I both wear glasses and you can still see their imprints in the generated pictures. Here they are! I think they're pretty cute.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Cycle 11 CD4 - Sharing the Good News

First I want to remind everyone to comment on my International Blog Delurking Week post. I know more than three people are reading this!

No, I'm not talking about Jesus. You guys can look up info on him on your own if you wish. =P Some very good things have happened since my last cycle update that I'm very excited to share with everyone! First, last week's post was featured on Stirrup Queen's Friday Blog Round Up. If you're unfamiliar with her, she curates Stirrup Queen’s Completely Anal List of Blogs That Proves That She Really Missed Her Calling as a Personal Organizer as well as hosting IComLeavWe for the ALI community. So she's kind of a big deal. I feel like I've moved up a step in my blogging career.

Secondly, AF was two/three days late. I say two/three because in the past I've had an LP of both 12 and 13 days. Last cycle it jumped up to 15! I was freaking out for a while but she finally showed up. I guess the extra Clomid made my progesterone go up so it was increased. I felt all TWW like my progesterone was higher as my symptoms were more intense, so this seems plausible to me. The good news is I almost definitely will not O on the cruise now so we can just relax. CD17 isn't even till two days after we get back and I highly doubt I will O that early again. So that is something we no longer have to worry about.

The big, BIG, news though is we are switching to Femara!! Yup, no more Clomid for me. I'm all about less side effects, especially this cycle. Femara isn't supposed to dry your CM out like Clomid does so that eliminates one of my supplements. We are starting back at the beginning with 2.5mg (~50mg Clomid) so I doubt I will even O this cycle. Some people respond better to Femara than Clomid so it's possible but I expect an anov cycle. That's okay though because I no longer have to worry about stopping treatment in a few cycles. I feel like I can afford to have an anov cycle, even though they suck big hairy monkey balls. If my cycle is probably going to be anov anyway, there's no point in stressing about it on the cruise. If I can't temp and use OPKs and take my supplements religiously on the cruise it shouldn't really matter. I still want to try and temp or use OPKs though so I will know for sure if I didn't ovulate, and can start provera as soon as possible. Of course I really hope I do O even if I don't feel the pressure to catch it.

If you're not aware, Femara is way more expensive than Clomid which is why we didn't switch earlier. We didn't think we could afford it. However one of my friends told me about a coupon that makes it like 80% off! I was able to get 5 tablets for about $5. If I ended up taking 7.5mg eventually that would only cost about $10. So it's really comparable to Clomid this way. If you're interested in switching yourself, the coupon is from

Monday, January 7, 2013

International Blog Delurking Week 2013

Every year the first full week of January is International Blog Delurking Week. What does that mean? It means if you have been reading my blog but not commenting, also known as lurking, this is your opportunity to let me know you're there! A simple "hi!" would be fine, or you can go into something a little deeper. The amount of views I get each week is so disproportionate to the amount of comments, so I'd just like an opportunity to say hi back and thank you for reading. =] I am guilty of lurking myself so I encourage everyone else to participate! 

Don't want to just say hi, but can't think of anything else to say either? How about answering this prompt: If you won the lottery, other than paying off bills, what would you buy?

To answer my own question I would of course bring out the big fertility guns, injectibles at the very least and IVF if that didn't work. I would buy a new-to-me car. I would get a much nicer apartment/rented house, but not buy a house as we are looking at moving away from the area in 2014. I would update my wardrobe slightly and get some really nice, supportive bras. The ultimate goal though would be to invest the bulk of it so it could supplement our finances long-term. 

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Cycle 10 CD29 (12dpo) - Big Effin' Negitive

I was so sure. I don't know why I was, just set myself up for disappointment. For the past week or so I've felt like I had some great symptoms. I tested at 9dpo and thought I saw a really super faint line. Like one of those that you only see sometimes. Normally I would have just thought "line eye" and not gotten my hopes up, but very recently one of my friends had a line like that at 9/10dpo and then got great lines a few days later. But I guess it really was line eye or an indent maybe. This batch of tests seem to get a lot of indents.

So next cycle. Next cycle. Sigh. AF should be here tomorrow or Friday. I hope she waits until Friday because I'm going almost two hours away tomorrow for my dress fitting, and I really don't want to have to deal with that. This next cycle is going to be problematic because of our cruise. I'm not sure what to do. We'll be gone from CD9/10 till CD17/18 which is pretty inconvenient. I'm supper glad I won't have AF, but this is about the worst possible timing other than that. If I O the same time I did this cycle, which I think is safe to assume since the protocol is the same, then I'll O the last day or two of our cruise. If I go back to O'ing CD20 then I'll still be in my fertile period on the cruise.

I know what you're thinking, "Babymoon! Vacation is a great time to conceive!" This is probably true for most people, but in our situation it's not as easy as that. I want to just relax on this vacation we've been planning for like 7 months or something. Unfortunately "relax and it will happen" isn't as applicable when you're infertile. For one thing Clomid makes me pretty miserable. For another trying to temp on vacation isn't going to be easy. Who wants to carry around OPKs and a plastic pee cup on vacation? I know I won't be able to take my Metformin. I can't even remember to take it when we go out to dinner now, so there's no way I'm going to remember on vacation, and I have to take it right with dinner or it makes me sick. I'm going to have to take 6 different supplements with us and remember to take them everyday. I'm going to have to keep track of our BD timing and make sure it's enough but not too much, and no one wants to worry about that on vacation.

So the logical thing would be to take the cycle off, right? Only that comes with it's own problems. A while back I read an article about new research that suggests cycles starting with an induced AF have a lower pregnancy rate. I can already tell by my temps that cycles starting with an induced period are different than ones with a natural one. The time we conceived was the only time so far that I ovulated after a natural AF. So it seems like this next cycle might have a better chance since I will have a natural AF. If I skip next cycle and don't take Clomid, then I probably won't O and have to induce AF again, and them when we start back TTC my chances will be lower again. Sigh.

Oh and one of my pregnant friends went for a scan today and was told it's likely her baby won't survive due to bad Down's or a heart defect or both. She's been bleeding for a few days. Oh and my friend I mentioned earlier who had the super faint line on 9/10dpo and then got great lines lost her baby too. This year is really starting out with a bang.