Infertility Dreams

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This post is not about the "I have a dream" kind of dreams, but the kind that sneak up on you in the middle of the night. Why dream about puppies or rainbows when you can dream about injections? We're not even in treatment right now!

If you can't tell, last night I had a dream (or probably nightmare) about infertility. One of you lovely ladies got her BFP and offered to give me the rest of her stims so I wouldn't have to pay for them. So I went and got this little mostly full bottle of something, the dream wasn't specific. And then everyone started getting on my case about that being illegal. I was going to go to jail because someone was nice to me. Apparently in Dream Land it's illegal to give someone your fertility drugs, but only if you used some of them. The person who gave me the vial had used some, but only a teeny tiny amount. I had to try and convince everyone it was still full and she hadn't used any, otherwise they were going to call the police on me. Both dream me and real me are terrible liars so this didn't go well. It was so frustrating because things were finally going well and instead of having our baby I had to try and keep from being arrested. When I woke up I was so relieved. Not because if someone gave me their drugs I wouldn't actually go to jail (I know others have had stims donated to them without a problem), but because we won't need stims for our donor embryo cycle. Infertility really does seep into every aspect of your life.