Monday, November 5, 2012
30 Days of Thanks: Day 5
5. I am thankful for Just Mommies.
Several months ago I went to the baby shower of an old friend. I had recently started getting pretty bad cramps that were quite alarming to me. I just knew my endo was coming back and that was it for my dreams of being a mother. I had scheduled an appointment to discuss what was going on with Dr. E for that next week. While at the shower I got the questions. You know the ones, "When are you planning on having kids?" It was a hard day for me because not only was I at a baby shower (which is always hard for someone dealing with infertility) it had also come at a bad time personally. So I told people. I didn't say we were TTC, I just said we wanted kids but it was quite likely I would have a hysterectomy before we got the chance. I know you're probably thinking, what does this have to do with Just Mommies? I promise I'm getting there!
One of my other friends came up to me later that day and confided in me that she also had PCOS. Amazingly her and her DH had started trying the same month we did. She wasn't having any luck ovulating either. =/ Even though I'm really saddened by the idea of one of my friends going through this is was nice to have someone I could talk to. Someone who would get it. She told me about this great forum of other women who are TTC who have helped her deal with the trial of infertility. That forum is Just Mommies.
It took me a little while to get comfortable there. I had been on forums full of hormonal women before and it wasn't very pretty. Thankfully I found that their tag line was spot on, it was "the friendliest place for moms and moms-to-be!" Being able to go there and describe my CM in gruesome detail when I needed to, rant about another anovulatory cycle, or celebrate the ovulatory ones has been wonderful. I have met a great group of women, many whom I've grown close to. We are even doing a Christmas card exchange and I am quite looking forward to that. It has also helped me deal with my loss because they understand. Some of them have gone through losses of their own, and they let me know it was okay to feel the way I was thinking. That the name "chemical" didn't mean it was no big deal, it was okay for me to grieve. I don't know how I could have done it without them.